Sunday, August 31, 2008


Sometimes I lose track of life for a bit...I stop caring about productivity or improvement -- let alone cleaning my environment -- and just settle in with a bunch of movies and totally vegetate on my couch.

This can happen due to depression, or several days of poor blood sugar, or because of a series of misfortunes. In this case, however, my total lack of production -- and therefore the absence of blog posts -- has been caused by an uncomfortable, low-level anxiety about life in general.

My life is good, really! When TERRIBLE things happen around me I tend to get motivated and I go around and fix whatever needs fixing. But in these cases when stuff is just SORT of bad, my childish response is to drop everything, stop answering email, hole up in my apartment, eat junk food, and do nothing.

Which is exactly what I've been doing up until yesterday, when I think my funk finally broke. I made some progress on a piece of music called "Roadbird" that I've been playing with for a while, and went to see the Rollerderby grudge match in New Hamburg (I decided to root for the Venus Fly Tramps BEFORE I realized they were winning!)

This morning I pulled a four-inch roundworm out of my cat, which has actually been a bit of a motivator: now I have a tangible indication of what's wrong with her and how to tackle it. I'm actually looking forward to getting stuff done today, which is a much nicer feeling than just passively floating around and keeping my head down.

So here's to smooth production and a glorious sense of purpose, and those inevitable periods of down-time which make the better moments feel so darn good!


Lois said...

Hey Muffy!
I hope ZsaZsa appreciates what you do for her but being a cat she probably figures that's why she keeps you do all these fun jobs for her.
I am glad you have found out her problem and I am glad you are back on track!
Try to have some fun this weekend! :)
Get over to DQ and have a banana split. It's the worst thing you can do for your body BUT it does wonders for the soul!

Anonymous said...

uncomfortable, low-level anxiety about life in general

Hey, that's when you go out and meet friends! :)

Adam Thornton said...

Pulling out the roundworm was an unpleasant job for the both of us. :)

According to the vet, the roundworms are actually NOT the problem. Which is surprising, but I guess that's why she's the vet and not me...

Must have banana split!

Adam Thornton said...

I did, JJ, and it was WONDERFUL! A really fabulous night of fun and frolic with good people...the perfect cure for "reclusive misanthrope disorder."

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