I blame my liver ("Parker") for this, because chronically high blood sugar during a night is usually due to my liver secreting glucose, or whatever it secrets when it's upset (why can't it synthesize alcohol, or vitamin C?)
Since I am coming down off tonight's sugar high at this moment, now seems like a good time to describe what it actually feels like to have high blood sugar. It's a much more consistent feeling than a sugar low.
- A difficulty with small-talk. This also happens with low blood sugar. I say things that are either obnoxious (see "short temper" below) or I open my mouth and...nothing comes out.
- Thirsty, thirsty, thirsty! The first mouthful of liquid tastes great, but subsequent gulps feel funny, because of...
- ...an upset stomach. Actually, it's more like a stomach that's terminally clenched up.
- Always having to pee because of all that liquid I'm drinking.
- High body temperature accompanied by sweating, which makes your makeup slide off and defeats your deodorant.
- A short temper. Grrr!
- A tendency to complain and over-analyze, probably related to whatever makes my temper so short (and my makeup slough off).
- Anhedonia; an inability to really feel emotionally good about anything. Hence the complaining. For instance, right now I want to burst into tears about the stuffed cat that I mistreated and then gave away tonight, but if my blood sugar were normal I'd be able to at least acknowledge the GOOD stuff.
Am I complaining? Yes. Blame Parker.
Should I have eaten dinner? Yes. Blame me.